Saw Dr. Smautz and put drops in my ear. Exterol.
Tuesday. no better.
Wednesday. I could hear my GP over the phone. Reluctant to put more drops in.
Thursday. Put drops in at 11am. In tears by 2pm because it was so much worse. More buzzing and I could not hear the phone.
Friday. Had my ears syringed and it made no difference except less dizzy.
Saw Dr. Smautz who said it was probably an inner ear problem. Might be permanent damage. Anti biotics for a week in case it is an infection. If not, visit the specialist at Larbet to start investigations. Could be months!
All this since my party on Sunday! This is going to change my life and I am going to keep a diary as a record of how I am going to cope.
Thursday was the day I realised that my hearing life might be over and by 2.30 was in floods of tears.I don't even know what the feeling was. I have not cried like that for many years. Sobs more than tears.
Kate arrived and was wonderful.
I have found it difficult to eat this week.Worry and anxiety combined with slight dizziness?
This afternoon I went to see Dronma. The electricity was off. No phone and I thought she was a person who would understand. She did. As she has had hearing problems all her life, she was truly understanding and had lots of encouraging things to say.
Most of important... I can still paint. I am still alive.. I have friends.. It is not going to kill me.
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